Glorious LIER

I felt the breeze and the wind in my hair,
It's goin to be night, I'm really aware.
The street lights are there, shinin' bright,
Yet it's goin' to be sad, lonely night.

Watchin the moon as I pass along,
I'm feeling empty as I sing a song...
I think of you, not here by my side,
Coz' you're far from me in this world so wide...

I've been having dilemmas these days,
And they don't just seem to go away.
I don't know if it's about you,
Don't want to expect, I'll be so blue.

Thinkin' of you, I got drenched in the rain,
I cried and cried with so much pain,
I've just met you in this virtual reality,
See you in the flesh is an impossibility.

I wanna know if you feel it too,
If I open up my heart to you.
You're personality is still unkown to me,
Hope you'll impart your life openly.

Loving you is ridiculousness,
Even liking me is hopelessness.
Trust me, coz' all those endearing young charms,
Will change by tomorrow, and fleet in my arms.

I desire to hug you and kiss,
But a fantasy, I'll leave it as is.
Your face keeps popping into my mind,
I'm so naive, to consequences I'm blind.

The heart that has truly loved never forgets,
Awaiting for your love, I'll be full of regrets,
This kind of relationship won't last forever,
Coz' I know, in the end, you'll be a GLORIOUS LIER....:((

A Total Mess

I make people blithe and laugh,
But they don't see my life is rough,
They judge me then just by my cover,
Yet they don't look in and discover.

Even my family they don't know me,
Lots of problems I wanted a fairy,
Doesn't appreciate the achievements I have,
A single question, I do they love?

Doesn't really know if they are happy,
When I tell something, their bodies seems lousy,
Obstacles and dilemmas I wanted to face,
But whose with me in this life long race?

When something's lost I'm the one,
Accuses me, and the blaming's not gone,
I have no freedom like I'm on a cage,
Have no privilege that matches my age.

Fate, O Fate is treating me unfairly,
My whole being is getting lonely,
No one listens when I wanted to speak,
That every minute I'm turning weak.

My forlorn world is likely to fall,
Yet just don't know who's going to call.
Then really have to accept I guess,
That my life is just a total MESS...:((