A Total Mess

I make people blithe and laugh,
But they don't see my life is rough,
They judge me then just by my cover,
Yet they don't look in and discover.

Even my family they don't know me,
Lots of problems I wanted a fairy,
Doesn't appreciate the achievements I have,
A single question, I do they love?

Doesn't really know if they are happy,
When I tell something, their bodies seems lousy,
Obstacles and dilemmas I wanted to face,
But whose with me in this life long race?

When something's lost I'm the one,
Accuses me, and the blaming's not gone,
I have no freedom like I'm on a cage,
Have no privilege that matches my age.

Fate, O Fate is treating me unfairly,
My whole being is getting lonely,
No one listens when I wanted to speak,
That every minute I'm turning weak.

My forlorn world is likely to fall,
Yet just don't know who's going to call.
Then really have to accept I guess,
That my life is just a total MESS...:((