a very depressing and mind-blowing day today, not just today. but with this kind of life its like everyday... i feel like i'm gonna cry, give-in to the moment which is not totally agreeable... its like everything that's happening is opposing me, against on things that i wanted to happen,m 'cause that's what other people says that i can't disobey... and everything seems falling apart, and i can't do something about it. I'm so confused, what i want, what i really want..

I really don't know what i'm gonna do. cause people would get disappointed 'cause they expected so much in me, that i couldn't afford making one single mistake.. now that everything's been ruined! i have no one to tell no one to run to... everything's mixed up. am i really that perfect that I haven't given the chance to make one mistake.. the time to decide for my future and for my life??? they're expecting so much that I can't

Halloween

its November 1... Halloween has begun.. the freaky, creepy nights. endless scaaaary stories and the weird noises you heard (though i know, its just in your mind). TRICK or TREAT timeee!!! November is not just about the things that ive mentioned its about visiting our love ones that passed away, now in the arms of God... making us remember that once in our life, they have shared their joys their moments with us. that without them we'd be nowhere... nothing.. at all. November 1 is also the time that families far from each other are reunited... sharing pains, and covering them with laughter. its the time wherein we, feel the emptiness again... of not having our parted love ones anymore. some people feel the stinging, heart breaking thing when they visit the cemetery, remembering the times that they've spent from each other. but as we know... we must still live, be happy, live our lives. its not right to get stuck on the corner, still weeping, as if your blaming yourself why'd it happened to them... coz' I know and we all know that God has a plan for us. He know what's BEST for us, at the right time and at the right place... so as I speak, LIFE must go on... HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

You Complete Me...

For 9 months in your womb you carried,
When got wounded, you're the most worried,
With all your strength, to us you loved and cared,
To give us harm, no one ever dared.

You always fight for our rights,
In every darkness you give us lights,
When made mistakes you reaprimand,
But then carress our faces by your loving hand.

It's so untrue we don't love you,
Cause' in our hearts we do love you too,
We're so sorry if we made problems,
But when your happy, we're so overwhelmed.

You're always patient and humble to us,
That you're so proud when we're top in class,
You're very prompt whenever we call,
That you were there in all our downfall.

I'm so delighted that you're my mom,
In all our trials, you always come,
We all love you, you just can't see,
And I'm so prud to say, YOU complete ME...

Glorious LIER

I felt the breeze and the wind in my hair,
It's goin to be night, I'm really aware.
The street lights are there, shinin' bright,
Yet it's goin' to be sad, lonely night.

Watchin the moon as I pass along,
I'm feeling empty as I sing a song...
I think of you, not here by my side,
Coz' you're far from me in this world so wide...

I've been having dilemmas these days,
And they don't just seem to go away.
I don't know if it's about you,
Don't want to expect, I'll be so blue.

Thinkin' of you, I got drenched in the rain,
I cried and cried with so much pain,
I've just met you in this virtual reality,
See you in the flesh is an impossibility.

I wanna know if you feel it too,
If I open up my heart to you.
You're personality is still unkown to me,
Hope you'll impart your life openly.

Loving you is ridiculousness,
Even liking me is hopelessness.
Trust me, coz' all those endearing young charms,
Will change by tomorrow, and fleet in my arms.

I desire to hug you and kiss,
But a fantasy, I'll leave it as is.
Your face keeps popping into my mind,
I'm so naive, to consequences I'm blind.

The heart that has truly loved never forgets,
Awaiting for your love, I'll be full of regrets,
This kind of relationship won't last forever,
Coz' I know, in the end, you'll be a GLORIOUS LIER....:((

A Total Mess

I make people blithe and laugh,
But they don't see my life is rough,
They judge me then just by my cover,
Yet they don't look in and discover.

Even my family they don't know me,
Lots of problems I wanted a fairy,
Doesn't appreciate the achievements I have,
A single question, I do they love?

Doesn't really know if they are happy,
When I tell something, their bodies seems lousy,
Obstacles and dilemmas I wanted to face,
But whose with me in this life long race?

When something's lost I'm the one,
Accuses me, and the blaming's not gone,
I have no freedom like I'm on a cage,
Have no privilege that matches my age.

Fate, O Fate is treating me unfairly,
My whole being is getting lonely,
No one listens when I wanted to speak,
That every minute I'm turning weak.

My forlorn world is likely to fall,
Yet just don't know who's going to call.
Then really have to accept I guess,
That my life is just a total MESS...:((