a very depressing and mind-blowing day today, not just today. but with this kind of life its like everyday... i feel like i'm gonna cry, give-in to the moment which is not totally agreeable... its like everything that's happening is opposing me, against on things that i wanted to happen,m 'cause that's what other people says that i can't disobey... and everything seems falling apart, and i can't do something about it. I'm so confused, what i want, what i really want..

I really don't know what i'm gonna do. cause people would get disappointed 'cause they expected so much in me, that i couldn't afford making one single mistake.. now that everything's been ruined! i have no one to tell no one to run to... everything's mixed up. am i really that perfect that I haven't given the chance to make one mistake.. the time to decide for my future and for my life??? they're expecting so much that I can't