a very depressing and mind-blowing day today, not just today. but with this kind of life its like everyday... i feel like i'm gonna cry, give-in to the moment which is not totally agreeable... its like everything that's happening is opposing me, against on things that i wanted to happen,m 'cause that's what other people says that i can't disobey... and everything seems falling apart, and i can't do something about it. I'm so confused, what i want, what i really want..

I really don't know what i'm gonna do. cause people would get disappointed 'cause they expected so much in me, that i couldn't afford making one single mistake.. now that everything's been ruined! i have no one to tell no one to run to... everything's mixed up. am i really that perfect that I haven't given the chance to make one mistake.. the time to decide for my future and for my life??? they're expecting so much that I can't

Halloween

its November 1... Halloween has begun.. the freaky, creepy nights. endless scaaaary stories and the weird noises you heard (though i know, its just in your mind). TRICK or TREAT timeee!!! November is not just about the things that ive mentioned its about visiting our love ones that passed away, now in the arms of God... making us remember that once in our life, they have shared their joys their moments with us. that without them we'd be nowhere... nothing.. at all. November 1 is also the time that families far from each other are reunited... sharing pains, and covering them with laughter. its the time wherein we, feel the emptiness again... of not having our parted love ones anymore. some people feel the stinging, heart breaking thing when they visit the cemetery, remembering the times that they've spent from each other. but as we know... we must still live, be happy, live our lives. its not right to get stuck on the corner, still weeping, as if your blaming yourself why'd it happened to them... coz' I know and we all know that God has a plan for us. He know what's BEST for us, at the right time and at the right place... so as I speak, LIFE must go on... HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)